The last few weeks have been very full at our house. Life keeps marching forward. Some days it’s a non-issue. Other days, my heart aches so deeply for the little one who is not yet with us as we do life as a family. Other adoptive momma’s have confirmed many of feelings. I am finding it remarkable the way my body and mind process our adoption in the same way they processed being physically pregnant. There are times of extreme worry that overflow my thoughts and emotions. With my first two children those worries were about what I was doing with my physical body to get them here safe and on time? As a mom, the thought of any of my actions negatively affecting my child was a horrifying thought. With my little one growing in my heart, my thoughts are not far off that mark. Are the decisions I am making for fundraising or preparing for our home study going to negatively affect my child? Could my decisions be ones that make our process longer than God plans for it to be? Are my choices going to get him here safe and on time? I lean into God daily to seek His will for this journey. Just as I did with the other two. January flew by and February showed up before we knew it. Our sweet little Sophia celebrated her 8th birthday rescuing animals with some of her friends. She has such an amazing little heart for others. A couple years ago, she started a little business selling shell necklaces to raise money for ALL the orphans of the world. While we felt this goal was lofty we allowed her to run with the project. Within the first year, she had sent over $800.00 to two specific orphanages. One in China and one in Uganda. At the beginning of this month she modified her goal, for short term, to raise money to bring her brother home. You can learn more about this project at princesspendants.weebly.com. As we continued to pray for God’s clear guidance for our first payment and subsequent fundraising, God continued to show us how faithful He is to us. On the day of my daughter’s birthday party we received a VERY large gift. Some dear friends of ours have four beautiful children with hearts full of love for others. These siblings have come alongside Sophia in her shell necklace business by creating and selling works of art in their neighborhood. They too changed their focus for a short time. Their sweet daughter brought me a simple little envelope when she arrived to Sophia’s birthday party. She smiled from ear to ear as she simply said, “This is for your Burundi baby.” She and her brothers had been hard at work creating and selling. Never before in my life has $23.68 been more valuable. My heart almost burst. God is moving! Today we sent in our first big payment and our contract for the Burundi program! PRAISE GOD!!!!! One step complete. Our next step(s) will include paperwork, our home study, paperwork, some fundraising, paperwork, and paperwork. Once our home study is complete, we will be able to begin applying for adoption grants. We have 6 months to complete our home study, dossier, and make our next payment. “God, please take me by the hand and lead the way. I’m trusting you to lead me where you want me to be.”
While I don’t know who originally spoke that quote, I know it is the cry of my heart. I am leaning into God for each step of this journey. For every emotional roller coaster. For every decision. For EVERY step. I am so thankful for His provision. His Grace. His infinite love. His Plan for our forever family.
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AuthorMy name is Deidra Miller. I have been married to my wonderful husband, Dusty, for 17 years. We have two biological children and our family is growing again. We prayed for 2,786 days and God answered our prayers. More days (almost 4 years) have been added as we wait for God's perfect plan for our family. We can't wait to meet our beautiful twin boys! Archives
October 2022
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