God’s story is so beautifully written. I am blessed beyond measure this week by the extended family I have gained through my boys. Of course their biological family will always be dear to our hearts and a celebrated part of our family, but we have gained so much more than that.
God has blessed me with wonderful friends, adoptive mommas, throughout our entire adoption journey. They have moved from a place of friendship to a part of our family. They have understood the struggles, prayed through the hard, praised God with me through the hurt and joys, and lifted me up as I have walked this stretch of road to motherhood. We have also journeyed this road with others in the same season of waiting season who have supported, understood, cried, and praised God with us. Some of these families have children from different shelters than our boys, but some of them have children that have been living in a family with our boys for years. They are as much a part of our family as our boys and I am feeling blessed today that I get to love their families and be loved by them. I am so thankful we have found one another in this journey. Thankful for the sanity you give me and thankful for the relationships for my children. We have made connections we can keep and grow for our boys. Thank you all for being a part of our story and allowing us to be a part of yours.
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Our journey has been long. God placed our future children on our hearts just over 12 years ago. For years the hard part of the journey was waiting on God to say move. For almost 7 years, we watched our "big kids" grow and wondered what God’s plan was. It’s no secret those were hard years for me. God had promised a child, but I had to wait on Him. During those 7 years, I watched family and friends welcome children through delivery and adoption into their lives. I always had joy for them, ALWAYS, but there was also always this place in my heart that ached. During those 7 years, God called me to China twice for the plight of the orphan. But both times I was there he whispered clearly, “your child isn't here”. My heart ached. During those 7 years, I attended countless conferences and conventions where the headline speakers were telling their adoption story and journey. I would sit and quietly sob in those dark arenas. But also during those 7 years, God started bringing beautiful and wonderful families into our lives that were growing through adoption. Families we got to pray with and journey with. Families that have taught me so much about adoption and about who I am. Families that have been a support and that I could never have imagined journeying without in the last 5 years. God made a promise. We never doubted that he would keep it, I just struggled with when He would fulfill it. Today marks 5 years since we "officially" began our adoption journey. On September 22, 2016. Dusty, who had been praying for God's leading on timing, who had heard “not yet” for 7 years, said it's time to start taking next steps and seeing where God wants us to move. My heart had waited 7 years to hear him say, "ok, it's time." I am sure I had other things scheduled that day, but I know I spent EVERY minute I could researching and learning about different agencies and options. We continued to pray and seek God’s direction. He made himself very clear, very quickly. And it's been amazing to see how He has been working in the background. For almost 7 years Dusty said it's not time, our son isn't here yet. My heart hated hearing that phase, but I also knew he was right. Brief overview: I’ve always known that God was going to move at a time where it would be obvious that it was to His glory and not due to my planning. I knew I was going to have to step out of the way and allow Him to shine, let loose of my reins of control. But I never thought He would bring us to this place and time in our world. It is nothing but the grace and glory of God that has and will continue to move mountains for us to bring our boys home.
On this 5 year mark from beginning our adoption journey, I was so prayerful we would be in Burundi. We are so close...I thought it would be so beautiful of God to have us holding our boys in our arms on this day, but that wasn't the plan. If I am honest, I am struggling a lot in this last season of waiting. The labor pains are hard, but I know that God’s plan for that day we meet our boys will be more beautiful than I could imagine. HE HAS NEVER FAILED ME. No matter how I doubted, no matter how I feared, no matter if I was angry, no matter if I was sad. Through it all He has been faithful. We will continue to follow Him in our wait. And when he says go, we will be ready! Updated: Watching God do His thing....we learned at 3:40 pm on September 22, 2021 that our final letters from the court were signed today... exactly 5 years from God saying, "Go", our adoption is legally finalize. |
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AuthorMy name is Deidra Miller. I have been married to my wonderful husband, Dusty, for 17 years. We have two biological children and our family is growing again. We prayed for 2,786 days and God answered our prayers. More days (almost 4 years) have been added as we wait for God's perfect plan for our family. We can't wait to meet our beautiful twin boys! Archives
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